Some Things Are Just Different Up Here
Recognizing what you need is easy, but your desires are often more difficult to truly assess. Alas, recognition alone will not make them real. What good is knowing what you want if you are unable to take action and make it a reality? Success can only come in finding a way to achieve both –identifying what you want then choosing the path that gets you there. Young, my heart’s desires and needs were so simple. I lived for days I could stretch out so that they seemed as long as eternity; when the wavering sun set, I mourned the darkening of its end.
That smelled of God.
They were like the man –smooth
The glare of sun,
Wondering why he worked so hard.
Skin split and tough by too much work
He had not cared how they looked
Except perhaps when they held her face.
When she was angry
Because he had spent the whole day fishing
I remember the effect
Of his touch-
Rough skin against smooth cheek,
Left her eyes.
I admired him,
Watched him grasp
Melding work with play.
He tried to explain that they were not separate,But equal
And often it was work that won your soul,
I did not understand
Back then. But now
As I walk off my garden’s length,
Mark my rows,
Eye the lay of land,
I am wishing that he was here
To join me ankle to ankle, elbow to elbow In rich dirt
That smells of God.
I would place my footsteps
Listen to the pull of the plow
And gather smooth stones that turn their heads, Pocketing those I cannot live without
And recognize that within my furrowed depths
He is forever a part of me
As is the toil of this sweet soil.
Written this first Saturday, following our last forecasted frost.